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Selphie Tilmitt ([personal profile] boomchucka) wrote in [community profile] melodiesoflife2016-05-11 09:25 pm

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Who: Selphie, Yuri and open to housemates
What: Lil' Miss Sunshine isn't so sunny lately and could use some cheering up.
Where: Team Hijinks House
When: May 3rd
Warnings: n/a First thread chronologically goes to Yuri for dragging Selphie out of her room.


When they'd finally arrived back in the relative safety of their house in Aqures Ixen, Selphie promptly made a beeline directly for her bed. She was still feeling the drain from the excessive amount of magic she'd cast trying to save the life of one woman. One life she couldn't save. One life that she'd wanted to save with all her being and it hadn't worked out. She'd never had to use her own mana before to cast magic and the exhaustion had hit her like a ton of bricks. She didn't remember falling asleep on their way back to Aqures Ixen and had walked quietly with the rest of her friends back to the house they called home.

Coming home did nothing to make the feeling of failure go away. No matter how many lives she may have potentially saved back home during the war meant nothing in the eyes of that little boy who lost his mother that day. Another child had to go without their mother and it gnashed at Selphie's heart as she'd crumpled into her bed after peeling out of her clothes. Not even Jaelyn's concerned voice could rouse Selphie for a good day.

That was two days ago. When she'd woken up feeling human, Jaelyn had urged Selphie to eat something only to be met with an apathetic shrug as the perky brunette rolled over in bed and cried for the life that she couldn't save. It weighed heavily on her heart and mind. It left her wondering if she'd only trained harder, maybe she could've saved that woman.

It left Selphie broken inside and more than a little conflicted. Loss of life came with being a hero but it was something that the perky brunette would never get used to. For now, Selphie was at least sitting up in bed, staring at her hands while trying to be as small as possible in her pajama bottoms and an oversized hoodie.

One more life that she couldn't save on top of the dozens of others from back home.

Some hero of light she turned out to be.

Jaelyn hovered outside of Selphie's door after having been forced out for trying to coax her companion out of her room to eat something. The moogle was concerned for the girl who was far from herself and refused to talk about what happened.

"You have to come out sometime, Selphie," Jaelyn pleaded with no response.
dammit_yuri: (15)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-12 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
I have some flavored bread I bought from the market.

[Flynn is outside her door. He knows she hasn't moved. He was having a tough time dealing with it, too, but orphans had to stick together, right?]

Would you like some?
dammit_yuri: (03)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-13 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
A little water doesn't hurt most people.

[He holds out the bag. There are some sweet breads and savory breads, and one has a hot dog in it!]

How are you holding up?
dammit_yuri: (06)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-13 07:26 pm (UTC)(link)
It's okay if you decide to lie.

[Flynn magically procures a glass of milk in his other hand and offers it to Selphie.]

Just as long as you don't ask any of us to leave your side.
dammit_yuri: (07)

my aim is a lot of things, but good is never one of them

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-14 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
I know that we're all still processing what we had experienced, but please, don't hesitate to knock on my door if you ever need a sounding board.

And if you don't want to talk... well, words aren't the only way to communicate how you feel.

[He smiles as he holds out the bag again to see if Selphie wanted seconds for later.]
dammit_yuri: (05)

having a jill aim sounds dirty somehow, but i'm not entirely sure how it'd work

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-15 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
Stop right there.

[Flynn placed the bag down, and firmly grasped Selphie's shoulders in his hands.]

You already know this isn't true. Bargaining doesn't do anyone any good!

[His teeth are clenched. The woman reminded him of Estelle so damn much.]

We may not have been able to save her, but... at least she didn't have to leave this life without anyone witnessing her final moments.

[His voice becomes solemn.]

Can you imagine a fate worse than going into death in loneliness?
dammit_yuri: (15)

maybe it's a metaphor for life. it sounds dirrty but it's just confusing.

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-16 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
But people die every day, whether we're aware of it or not.

[Flynn sighs, and takes a seat on a chair.]

Would you feel better if we never had to witness her death? If we weren't there to even try anything?
dammit_yuri: (11)

sorry, might be me bleeding into him. mom studied psychology and tested her knowledge out on me

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-18 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
The thing about giving advice is that you hardly ever hear it yourself.

[Flynn smiled.]

Being a pillar of support for everyone else is fine, but who then is the support for the pillar? Don't forget, we're all here for you. If you feel like crying, cry. If you feel angry, be angry. And when it's all over with, you can smile and laugh to the fullest extent without anything fettering you.
dammit_yuri: (11)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-19 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
How do you think you can use this experience to improve your reactions for the future?

If you would have done anything differently, do you think you can put yourself in the mind set to see if things could be done in another manner in the future?

There will always be sacrifices and regrets, but we cannot let those be in vain. The ticket to the future is blank, meaning you can go anywhere. Make sure it's somewhere better from here on out.
dammit_yuri: (03)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-25 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
You can't be all-sorry unless you're all powerful.

[Flynn sighs.]

And whatever areas you feel you are short, that's why we have comrades who can pick us up on their shoulders.
dammit_yuri: (07)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-27 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
I don't see why not. If you're willing to put in the effort, I'd be more than willing to teach you what I know.
dammit_yuri: (04)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-05-31 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
Indeed, I do.

[His head tilts as he smiles.]
dammit_yuri: (08)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-06-14 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
When would you like to?
dammit_yuri: (05)

[personal profile] dammit_yuri 2016-06-20 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Works for me!

I warn you, I'm a strict teacher. No whining allowed.