amygdalae: the storm lies in your hands. (you're only a victim of your own mind)
Bruce Banner ([personal profile] amygdalae) wrote in [community profile] faderift2015-12-17 02:22 am

[OPEN] I can't get by pretending it's okay

WHO: Bruce Banner and Anybody Else
WHAT: Everything Is Fine And Nothing Is Wrong: a premier by Bruce
WHEN: Haring 16 onwards
WHERE: All over Skyhold
NOTES: Mostly open post through the rest of December - prompts and such are under the cut. I'm starting in brackets, but feel free to switch to prose and I will follow accordingly! Also warning for angst and Bruce being Bruce.


one. making the rounds. (courtyards, most of skyhold)
[Almost one week later, Bruce still can't quite shake off the entire incident from his mind. Or rather, he can't shake off the image of the dead mage in his head when he finally made it out of the garden, the poor soul gone for good after what Adelaide and the others had done.

He couldn't blame them, of course - they were only doing what was necessary, what was right - but all the same it still reminded Bruce of the reality of what he was and how people would perceive him if they ever knew the truth. The moment they knew... nothing would ever be quite the same, that he was certain of.

He tries not to dwell on it too much, but it continues to haunt him through the day as he does his daily rounds. Having denied himself the use of his magic save for that one time with Cole, Bruce is still healing from the injuries he suffered from the abomination. There're bandages around his head and arms and chest (although the last is hidden underneath his clothing) but Bruce doesn't let those get in his way, just as he doesn't let the occasional throb or ache of pain from his still healing ribs stop him from doing his work. Some of his more familiar patients do ask him about it, but Bruce is quick to brush them off and turn the attention back to themselves. They are all far more important than he will ever be, after all.]

two. fixing the garden. (the garden)
[With how things had been that night the abomination had more or less left a good part of the garden damaged. That, of course, included the herbs that had been growing, which was most likely going to cause some issues in the near future.

Still, at least its not like they're gone forever. Bruce drops by the garden whenever he can, helping to get the earth ready once more so that a new batch of herbs can be planted with the hope that they'll grow properly and without interruption this time around. It hard labor, yes, but at least the work helps Bruce to temporarily keep his mind off the more dangerous lines of thoughts that he knows he shouldn't dwell on. How long that works, though, is another thing entirely.]

three. midnight wanderings. (battlements and library)
[The thoughts never leave him, not really, and Bruce knows full well that he's going to have to deal with a good while of not being able to sleep properly. Sleepless nights are practically an old friend to him now.

That doesn't mean he will let himself waste his time - since he is awake he might as well make full use of what he has. On some nights he can be found on the battlements, brewing potions up there in the quiet that's only broken by the footsteps of the night patrol. On other nights he might in the library instead, perusing several books and if one manages to catch him at the right time, will see that it pertains to abominations and other such things related to them.]

wildcard.
[Feel free to throw in your own prompt or PM/contact me to plot out stuff!]

colecomfort: (Default)

three. battlements

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[The silence is broken by other things, though only occasionally. The scrabbling of tiny animal feet, for instance: a rat that's wandered far away from the basement for some unknowable reason, or a cat that's taken it upon itself to explore. These are rare, however, and quiet compared to the sound of flame and bubbling potions.

Tonight, there's something different. Shortly after the night patrol passes, there's a creaking of wood, the sound of a barrel being opened, and a light clanging of metal. If Bruce goes to investigate, he'll find Cole just in time to see him closing up the barrel again.
]
colecomfort: (i am well)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't normally expect to be found. But he'd known Bruce was up here, had felt him just on the other side of the wall. The bigger surprise — a pleasant one — is that Bruce addresses him by name.]

Yes. [Yes, that's me.] You remember.
colecomfort: (from a distance)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
They were fighting. Some of them were thinking about their blades. [Now, at least, if the men come to blows, it will only be with their hands.] I'm only hiding them for a while.

[Hopefully Bruce won't tell.]
colecomfort: (Default)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 05:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Everyone's talking so much. It's hard to hear what's underneath. [At least, he thinks it must be, if it takes so long for people to come to an agreement.]
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[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
You want to ask. [Almost anyone could have detected that, but Cole manages to say it so matter-of-fact, not even looking Bruce's way as he finishes closing up the barrel.]
colecomfort: (protect)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-24 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Which part -- oh. You mean that.

[He turns toward Bruce now, and hops up and back to sit on top of the barrel.]

Demons don't want to die. [Which may or may not come as a surprise. Some would assume demons and spirits had no opinions on the matter.] It's your body, but it's his home. Sometimes he comes out when there's danger. [Doesn't he?]
colecomfort: (shy guy)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-27 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It's — not about saving. It's that he doesn't want you harmed. [There's a fine line of difference. The demon acts out of instinct to protect its home.] That's all.
colecomfort: (finding the words)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-28 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
It's doing what it knows. It thinks it needs to fight to be real. Damage, destroy — if it breaks something, he knows he's been there.

[It's speculation, in part, but it's also a mindset Cole knows about all too well. In fact, there's a germ of an idea there. If he could speak to the demon, try to turn it away from what it is...

But he tried that once before at Therinfal. Even if it might work, that would probably involve drawing the demon out. Best not to mention it for now.
]

That — doesn't help. I know.
colecomfort: (Default)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-30 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[There are other things to be concerned about, certainly, but Cole doesn't mind. Without the need to sleep, he quite literally has all the time in the world.

And Bruce did ask. But Cole's still going to be sorry the answer didn't help.
]

You wanted to know.
colecomfort: (it doesn't sound right)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2015-12-30 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know how I did it. [To be perfectly literal about things. One thing he does know, however, is why.] There was a mage. He needed my help.
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[personal profile] colecomfort 2016-01-03 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[A nod. Thanks to the width of the hat's brim, it comes off as more pronounced than it is.]

I followed the call. I found him. The templars had all forgotten, thrown him in the dungeon and walked away. I tried to save him, but he died. Dark, and then darker, and then, nothing at all --

I couldn't go back to the Fade after that. I didn't know how. I didn't even know what I was.
colecomfort: (by candlelight)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2016-01-04 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I slipped through the Veil, to the other side. [The mechanics of it are lost on him. It's possible Solas would be able to explain it further.]

I'm not inside anyone. [To address the question of possession.] I'm only myself.
colecomfort: (shy guy)

[personal profile] colecomfort 2016-01-05 03:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[Cole chooses a different word.]

—real. [Well.] Real-ish. Almost here. Not quite.

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