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Luke Castellan is a liar ([personal profile] chiseler) wrote2016-10-17 09:20 am
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Adam Parrish



I'm not calling you a ghost, just stop haunting me
and I love you so much, I'm gonna let you kill me
There's a ghost in my lungs and it sighs in my sleep
Wraps itself around my tongue as it softly speaks
Then it walks, then it walks with my legs
To fall, to fall, to fall at your feet

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night 8

[personal profile] antietam 2016-10-31 05:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Sleeping probably isn't necessary, but Adam tries because otherwise the day is too long. Unsurprisingly, though, after watching the trial and being alone with his thoughts, it doesn't work.

Being alone with himself is the worst possible thing at the moment. That's why he accepted Luke's invitation to stay at his home without a second thought. When he's alone, his senses are filled with a gun firing at him and then double the memories attack him—some in Virginia, some in the Columbia Commonwealth—and the utter fear of being killed with that gun. If it's not that, then he thinks about killing Franziska. It's not that he regrets it, but the feeling of beating someone to death is the worst possible thing. He never wanted that.

So he can't be alone or he thinks he might suffocate. He leaves his bedroom to go to Luke's, creeping as if he doesn't want to disturb him but still asks: ]
Are you awake?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-10-31 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Adam remains in the doorway of the bedroom, really not sure what his plan was here. Before, being able to talk to Luke about everything that was going on helped. He just doesn't know what to say now that the issues are much more personal. ]

Couldn't sleep. Just like you, apparently. [ There's a pause and then he leans against the door frame. ] What's on your mind?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-10-31 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He makes a noise of displeasure and shifts, crossing his arms and not looking at Luke. ]

A lot of things. Things that happened at the complex. Things before that. [ A pause. Luke said to ask an easier question. ] The murders. You didn't do them but were you there when they happened?

[ He'd been defending Luke about this in the previous trial without ever knowing for certain. ]
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-01 12:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's disappointing. He had hoped that it was as he told the others, that they murdered alone and Luke wasn't involved. He's not sure how to feel about Luke watching kids get murdered and being alright with it. ]

Did you ever feel guilty about it? Did you think about it after?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-01 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Adam is quiet and blank, still not sure what to think. ] What was the greater good? You never told me why you were killing people.

Was it what they talked about—that only five people could leave? You getting out was the greater good?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-01 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Adam starts a little when the light suddenly comes on and he looks away from Luke, frowning down at the carpet. ]

Obviously I do. I remember things now. Everything. That's what you meant when you said you understood yourself better after coming here, right?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-01 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He glances over curiously at the apology, not sure what to do with that. ] But why were you killing? Because of your memories?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-01 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's a long pause and then he scoffs. ] Really? Nothing better than that?

So the whole reason you gathered people here to kill them was... to create stress. Well, good job I guess. You've seen a lot of results.
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-02 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Because plenty of people say that and look how well the world's been going. Not to mention, I don't think anyone likes being an experiment.

How would you feel? You always wanted to do things yourself. Or was that fake?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-02 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Adam is quiet as he thinks. Luke still makes sense to him. If Adam was offered a chance to be a scientist, to get ahead, would he reject it?

He wasn't even one of them and he still killed someone. Does he have a right to tell Luke off about it? ]
Is that what you've been thinking about? What you did back there and what you saw?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-02 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows that it's a lot for Luke to tell him these things, but it's also clear that they're eating at him the same way Adam's memories are. So he moves from his place at the door slowly, enough for Luke to get the idea of what he's doing, and sits himself down at the edge of his bed. He's not entirely sure he's allowed to be there but he might as well. ]

It's really, really messed up. [ He looks over at Luke. ] So you're not a demigod or anything. Those are pretty weird memories to have, aren't they? Who are you really?
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-02 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He makes a noise of interest when Luke talks about being a psychology student. He supposes that makes sense in some ways. ] ... Exactly? [ Vaults weren't supposed to be like that, were they? ]

How exactly does your story line up with being a demigod and running away from monsters and going to a magic camp? [ It's not derisive, he's really interested. ]
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[personal profile] antietam 2016-11-02 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
That sounds more like shoddy architecture. [ But there's a drop in his expression when Luke mentions still learning. Luke had a lot ahead of him. Adam did too, maybe. They both had so much to learn. ] You could still learn here. That's why I wanted the library. There would have to be maps there. I was thinking, actually, we should make a map for our new town.

[ His fingers play with the bedding while he listens. It's a lot of new information about Luke and it makes sense. ] So the little girl was your sister. I think it was mostly the same for me. Just... the same thing but in the past, in a different version of America. I don't know why magic had to be a part of it. [ A pause. ] Wish they could have made some things a little nicer. Now I have double the shitty memories.

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